I’m officially “on vacation” these days. My maternity leave ended on March 9th and I’ve taken some extra time in order to find childcare for Eliza – childcare that doesn’t make me run away screaming. Many people assume that I’ve taken this time because I’m reluctant to go back to work, because I love my daughter so much, because being a Mother is so rewarding, because I love planning dinners and making sure the house is in order each day.
All this is true – but all this doesn’t mean I don’t want to go back to work. Sure, this work that I do isn’t exactly my life long ambition but it’s work and it’s helpful and it brings money to the table. It’s also productive and social and ordered and regular – much unlike Eliza’s nap schedule. The nap schedule does not feel productive, is most definitely NOT social and regular? Lets not set our clock on anything.
Regardless of my childcare difficulties, I am expected back at work on May 1st. It makes no difference that I’ve been on 12 wait lists since she was born. It makes no difference that I’ve got a willing and capable replacement in my position. It makes no difference that I’ll need to be trained on everything once I return due to changes in software, personnel and structure – Oh, the changes, my mind hurts to think of the changes!
So, I’m getting my act together. I’m making notes on her nap schedule (Ha!) and on her likes and dislikes. I’m thinking about the bottle introduction (anyone with a good lead on bottles? hook me up, my internet sisters). I’m making an appointment to get my teeth cleaned and my eyes checked.
It’s not that I want to have extra pearly whites for my co-workers, but I skipped out on extended dental for the year I was away and now that I’m back on pay again, I need a few things done.
1.) A cavity – something I would have gone back for previously but well, the last experience was… here.
2.) My vision is horrible (pregnancy does this to me, I think). My eyes are so bad that I can’t read a recipe without my glasses. I need a magnifying glass for my seed packets. I need a microscope for the map. I need some new glasses – something most likely thick and heavy. Really Sexy.
I should probably think about getting some tops for work as well. I’m still sporting some large (for me) breasts as we are still breastfeeding quite a bit. At least, I think this is why the tops aren’t fitting… Everything else fits like it did before. My weight is back down… I think…
Ummm, just lie and tell me that I have the figure of a goddess. I can’t see anyway.