The Sickness That Shall Not Be Named
I’ve been asked many times over the last week, “How do you know you have H1N1?” and although the question is valid, we have no idea if we actually got the much publicized flu, I think I started to resent the insinuation that perhaps what we were going through wasn’t – valid.
Of course, on the surface, I know this isn’t what people meant but it still got to me after awhile. I was worried. The chance of anything actually going wrong, actually causing a death, was extremely small – H1N1 or not – but that chance was big enough for me. Any chance is big enough.
I’m not a big fan of regret.
My doctor was worried enough to subscribe Tamiflu for Eliza and ahead of time for Franklin. Didn’t that say something? The fact that she told us to stay isolated for 7 days after the start of symptoms say she thought it was more than the regular flu?
All this time I’m taking off work, is it being questioned?
The Tamiflu? Thought of as unnecessary?
Am I scaring people? Am I crying wolf?
Everything was so confusing on television and online that I finally just went by one person’s advice, our doctor.
When I mentioned the odd email questioning my label of H1N1 (“how dare you self-diagnosis such a thing?”) to my husband last night he calmly replied, “But we don’t know for sure. If we did, we wouldn’t be planning on getting the vaccination once they are well enough”.
And he’s right.
We don’t know for sure.
We do plan on vaccinating for the H1N1 on Friday – once everyone’s no longer contagious.
There is no harm in questioning my diagnosis. I hope I’m not adding to the hysteria by doing so, but perhaps I am. However, I’ll repeat my reply to Jessica’s comment on Monday’s post – if it smells like a fox, sounds like a fox and looks like a fox, it’s probably a fox. Pretending that we have a big, wild, long haired dog like creature doesn’t make it any less scary. It also wouldn’t have changed a thing we did – the Tamiflu or the extended time at home now. In fact I’d like to know, if I’m supposed to be cautious in case it’s H1N1 then why the hell am I not supposed to call it H1N1?
I’m sick of the debate. I’m sick of the vaccination debate and I’m sick of the H1N1 conspiracy debate. It is a pandemic. It’s not a serious pandemic in that there is a vaccination and it is not fatal for most people but why are people hoping, praying that this isn’t a big deal? Why are people willing to put more stock into conspiracy theorists than researchers and scientists?
What happens if it’s not a big deal? My thoughts are that in the long run, it’s an economic problem; which when it comes to the government’s point of view, is a big scary deal.
1. you get the flu, you suffer, and then you go back to work with a cough and a bit of a runny nose.
2. your cough-about-town sends a dozen people to bed – people you met in the grocery store, the pregnant lady at the pharmacy, and the entire staff at Starbucks goes down because you hacked on a pin pad and “Alexia” can’t afford the time off so works through the flu while at work.
3. your boss doesn’t get her Starbucks before work because the shop is closed, comes in grumpy and then fires your ass.
It’s economics, baby.
That part’s not confusing.
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