So, I really am not fitting in anymore. I don't know what to say. It will not make sense to anyone who reads this.... I don't think anyway, I can always hope though.
I have felt like this once before. We were travelling across Canada with cousins and all I wanted to do was look out the window of the van and think. Everyone asked me what was wrong...why was I quiet, why was I thinking?

So I lied and said I was just wanting to get away from "the boys". It seemed to be what was needed - for them to hear and me to feel not so "unfit" - but then again perhaps not. What lesson was learnt then? Have I learnt it?

All I know is that I don't fit in and don't ask me if i want to, it's a stupid question and quite patrionizing.

Oh and before I forget...
Hurray Hurray for all you that have never fit in, you are so raw and so pure and so authentic....
Well, email away now, send me all that stuff to learn me my lesson ...

You know what I recommend reading? "The Fragile Species" by Lewis Thomas. He might be a little "out there" for some, but he really makes you think about yourself in a different way.