So what do you do when you have this friend that you don't really have anything in common with. In fact, you really don't even particularly like this friend. To be truthful, calling this person a friend is misleading at best.

So what do you do with said "friend" if this person will not take the hint.
Does one post it on one's weblog in hopes of this person reading this blog?

Quite a cowardly way to do it isn't it?
Besides, how would this person know who I was even referring to?

Yeah, well, it feels better to take it out on the blog. If I were to try to tell someone in confidence, they would eventually try to get out this person's identity and then I would be how they say:
talking behind their back

and I've always hated that...

I just have to say something frivolous and silly here:

I look really cool today. I have black tights and a mod little mini skirt with a black ribbed top that fits very very well. I also got these high shiny black boots the other weekend that make me look like I'm straight out of The Avengers...

look out Emma Peel!

Yup, I'm really liking this little form of procrastination these days.

Who would of thought that people would get so scaringly creative about this?

- and to think I could be heading down the dreaded 80's revival road?!?

Pretty soon I'll be singing Cold War songs like Ozzy Osbourne's "Crazy Train" and shaking my asymetrical bob while watching The Breakfast Club and eating C3PO's.

D, our roommate, and I went to the rally at the BC Legislature on Saturday. It was great. If you have no idea what I'm talking about, there is a website and a Campaign BC that has taken up the glaringly absent position of opposition in our province.

I think an opposition would be a good asset to this government. Then perhaps they wouldn't hastily retract senior citizen bus passes only to admit that they have gone too far and give them back again. A sign of a government on a rampage with the only reigns being held by the angry public is a strange and scary concept considering the quality of the media and the ability of both sides to manipulate this media.

I was going to apologize for some of the angry words I said the other day about the government but I won't. I don't believe Campbell's statistics and I have good reasons to do so.

I may not be as eloquent as I would like to be but I've never really aspired to be a writer anyway,

just a freak show performer....

A little trivia for you:

A native to Sumatra, the Amorphophallus Titanium, also known as the corpse flower, Devil's Tongue or Titan Arum, is reputedly the world's stinkest flower. When in bloom, this charmer emits a rotting flesh odor that can be sniffed 800 metres away.

and of course...
because of their phallic shape these plants are valued as aphrodisiacs or cures for impotence.

geeesh!

here's a close up view of the beast:

The Provincial Budget really had me angry yesterday. I walked home having an argument in my head the entire way. (that's 1 hour and 45 minutes of arguing...) I got so excited at some points I started talking to myself.

I'm sure the cars, cyclists and frightened people thought I was an hospital day patient of the Eric Martin Pavilion.

Correct me if I'm wrong, and I'm sure you will...
but, isn't the Liberal Party a proponent of small government? Little government taxes? A decrease in government involvement?
My objections to wide spread theories in general aside, isn't that their flipp'in platform?

The "tax cuts" Dix and I got from their "90-days-in-office-promise" was a whopping $200.00 a year! I got quite amused when I saw what this percentage outcome for the richest margin of society brought them. Whatever, I said, nothing's new in that respect. I, of course, chose this salary, I must not work hard enough or find think that it's a political statement to save for six months to buy new tires...

But to now make up for this through an increase in Provincial Sales Tax? Who will be feeling that bite? The lucky suckers that saved the $200.00 a year!
And then!!! To blame an increase of 50% in health care costs on a completed arbitration settlement with the doctors of the province but feel completely OK with tearing up teachers collective (settled) agreements!

Some consistency in decision making would be nice.
I'm slightly disappointed in this government, I have to say, I was hoping for something a little more.

I have to learn to trust myself.

I hate it when you know something to be true but yet some little doubt sneaks into your mind through some ill-informed person and then you don't stick to you guns and all hell breaks loose.

argh!
and if I had only trusted myself...

Two different searches for this site:

1) "crazy monologue scenario"
2) "picture of a child with snotty nose"

hmmmm...

The Vagina Monologues are over and I find I have a lot of time to think about the last couple of months. I have a friend, Emily, that works for the Victoria Sexual Assault Centre and she is very happy our production was so successful. We raised over 13,000 dollars. That will be a lot of support for the organizations we are raising money for.

Nevertheless, I am wanting to do something more. During one of our vagina workshops a very wise woman, Erin, reminded us of who we are and who we represent. I was already concerned about the lack of diversity in our cast and I had mentioned this to a number of volunteers. As a result, we have thought of numerous ways to change that for next year in order to make the cast represent a more diverse community and I am hopeful.

Regardless, we can never change the fact that we are privileged to even be going to university in the first place. My friend, Emily, does outreach for women who will never have the opportunity to sit around and talk about their feelings both personal and otherwise. They are caught in a cycle which is constantly violent and demeaning.

Don't we, as educated woman, we have a chance to escape this role? Are we not seen as more legitimate in society? Haven't we all heard someone (or ourselves) say that when a prostitute gets assaulted that they almost deserved it as they are in that line of work?

So, until I can do more, I am going to volunteer for the Victoria Sexual Assault Centre Crisis Line. I know this won't make me feel better about the world but it will make a difference in both my life and whomever I can help.

I used to have this crazy energy as a child. I would have to do this nutty, wild, exhausting sort of dance where I would flail my arms and legs out with so much gusto I would eventually lose some of the bottled up energy.
I once showed my older brother this great secret trick of mine which I thought worked so well but he looked at me like I would definitely be going into therapy in the future...
It made me feel so much better though, I still did it.

I haven't changed so much. I don't remember when I stopped doing the dance but it was probably when I discovered the exhausting sport of running.
I still need to be doing something all the time though. I can't stand around very long without getting restless.

Today I'm going to the doctor. I honestly haven't gone to see a doctor for about six years.
Considering I am a woman and am supposed to go at least once a year, that's pretty bad. Especially since my last pap smear was irregular.

yes yes yes

I'm a bad, bad girl

later...

I'm a-okay... in case you were worried.

I have always struggled with the reason why I have a weblog. I do know that I get an immense amount of pride creating it.

I think I enjoy the power of words so much that perhaps this is my own way of using them. I find it incredibly free and calming to be able to sit down and speak my mind.

I realize the purpose of my blog is not to "self-publish" but instead, to let others in my life get a glimpse of me and my thoughts.
People who read this and do not know me will not get a sense of who I am by reading this blog and I think they know this.

Regardless, this creation means a lot to me and I think the discussion in not.so.soft.com says a lot:

Morgan (on the subject of archives):

Do you think you're only a snapshot of what you are right now? Do you think you don't carry around your history with you wherever you go? You may not have to deal with the physical objects of the past but your archives are just as ethereal as your memories.

I don't think anyone can really paint an accurate picture of themselves, but by allowing us to look back, you allow us to paint a picture ourselves, and the very fact you allow that colors who you are too.
08/02/2002 14:43 [ link ]
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I don't know if "proud" would be able to describe it all but it sure is how I'm feeling about the entire production.

The crowd was so responsive and enthusiastic, I thought I was going to burst

Tonight is our dress rehearsal. I am quite nervous. I'm not too worried about the actresses and the monologues as I am about the lights, sound and transitions (cues).

I'm also worried about emotions running high and everyone getting on everyone else's nerves...

much much later...

So in retrospect,
I should have been worried about my emotions running high and everyone getting on my nerves as I got on everybody else's nerves...

ahem, yup, sorry about that Nina

Victoria's Sexual Assault Centre
- UVic Vagina Monologue Beneficiary

Open UVic Resaurce Sexual Assault Centre

- UVic Vagina Monologue Beneficiary

Revolutionary Association of the Women of Afghanistan
- UVic Vagina Monologue Beneficiary

Prostitution Empowerment and Education Resource Society
Provides services such as street outreach, advocacy, referrals and support to people who are actively engaged in the sex trade, as well as those choosing to leave.
Victoria Phone: 250.388.5325
- UVic Vagina Monologue Beneficiary

and then there's more:

Vancouver Rape Relief & Woman's Shelter

Metropolitan Action Committee on Violence Against Women and Children

Centre for Reseach on Violence Against Women and Children

Access to Justice Network

NOW and Violence Against Women

Anti-violence Resources at feminist.com

Myths and Realities about Sexual Assault. From the Fredericton Sexual Assault Crisis Centre

CAVEAT - violence, crime prevention, victims' rights, violence prevention education.

Bridges for Women

Feminist Majority Foundation

End Violenc Against Women from the John Hopkins University Center for Communication Programs

UNICEF - Violence Against Women

UNIFEM - Global Campaign to eliminate Violence Against Women

Today we are having a Vagina Tea Party over at my house. I think pretty much everyone is bringing over something red in theme to eat or drink.

I went over to Thrifty's and bought a lot of reddish/pink food to add and while I was standing in line the cashier noticed everyone buying the non-staple kind-of stuff - you know, chips, salsa, pop, and other junk. She asked us all - while her customer was fishing through his wallet for his credit card, if we were all planning a Super Bowl party. Everyone nodded and smiled but it was my opportunity to be proud of my vagina accomplishments. I boldly stated, loud enough for everyone to hear:

"Nah... I'm having a Vagina Party"

and proceeded to place things on the moving counter. Everything I put out was either red, pink, or in a red or pink container. People just watched all the things I was taking out of my basket.

It was fun, especially when the cashier told me she had bought tickets to the UVic production of the Vagina Monologues and that she might have a vagina party with her friends as well.

super-bowl, shmuper-bowl

crazy-bread!
If you do a search on my weblog, dirtyolive, on google you actually get this site on, or near, the top of the list!

so, I got that going for me.... which is nice.
thanks to the eatonweb portal

and another thing...

David, if you are reading this, I am pleading with you to please hurry and host my site.

This geocities thing of shutting me down when I have had too many visitors and apparently take up too much band-width(?) is driving me insane.
This geocities thing of shutting me down when I have had too many visitors and apparently take up too much band-width(?) is driving me insane.

I realize that I did not let anyone know except those in my immediate surroundings that I did get into the public admin program!

I just want to say I am extremely happy I decided to take the course I am taking right now. It is Collective Bargaining in the Public Sector and it's fascinating.
Of course, part of this reason is the vengeful government who we have all elected (don't say you didn't vote for them, everyone did, this wasn't a Gore/Bush bumble, there was no mistake in who we opened the doors to.
...and I know that for most people, it was because we didn't want the NDP any longer and we were scared of the Alliance Party, but I think we were scared stupid.

We have been studying Bills 27, 28 and 29, which concern the teachers and health workers. It's crazy! It's one thing to disagree with the philosophy of a union, it's another thing be in government and ignore the Charter of Rights and Freedom in order show your disagreement.

"We are soooo sorry Mr. Campbell, for being sooo left all these years... please don't hurt us anymore, we'll be good, we promise!"

Is that what he wants to hear?
Is that what all you want to hear?
I've said it then, now take the screws off and be a government with a brain.