Things are still up in the air and I'll probably be off for a bit longer. It's a combination of how freaked out I am and how much this entire incident has shown me that weblogs are creepy... and a source of ammunition to many people. I'm one of those people - who think it's creepy. Okay okay yes, I'm a little creepy too...

I used to know a woman who had a horrible weblog. It wasn't horrible in terms of writing style or design (okay, it was a little of that, but that's only my personal taste) but because of how mean and spiteful it was. She seemed to write only to be able to make personal attacks she couldn't seem to confront in her real life. I suppose this was a form of release, but it was the constant passive aggressive, false-front, spiteful and superficial shout to the entire world that disgusted me. It made me angry because she didn't seem to understand that weblogs are public and they can be read by anyone. Sure, you can trace IP addresses, but what good is that unless you are looking for smug satisfaction that someone is reading your snide messages?
Regardless, she didn't understand my point of view (which is fine) and I wasn't able to understand how she could attack people on such a public medium (which was perfectly fine with her). I was horrified to be considered a part of the same sub-culture as she was (which, I also believe, was perfectly fine with her) and therefore questioned why I wrote a blog in the first place.

Interestingly, I find this part of my blogging past a little humorous considering what I'm worried about right now. I really wish I could explain it, but I don't think it's a wise decision. People who are close to me and know the story think that I can use the situation as a topic to write about someday. However, I just don't think it's a good thing to do - at least not now.

Heh. Yes but... if I have to go to court I'll DEFINITELY be blogging about it later.

I really don't know what's happening - at least not the nitty gritty details.
I know that there are lawyers - who speak in a language I am scared of.
I know that the lawyer on my side hasn't called me to go to court - yet.
I most definitely know that no news is good news at this point.

Funny thing is, I don't mind this non-blogging thing. I thought I would miss it a hell of a lot more than I actually do. Of course, there are things that have happened lately that I would love to share with you but I think I'm going to wait a bit more before I'm actually back on. I suppose I'm just popping out to say 'Hi' and 'Thanks' - for all the comments and emails.

Our cat brought in a bird the other morning. The last time he did that was when my dog died and the house was one steaming pile of stress.
I think he senses the tension.